私喪失感を味わう... Watashi sōshitsukan o ajiwau...I feel lost...

"¿Qué es ser fuerte? Sospecho que ser fuerte no solo es una cuestión de poder, es fuerte la persona que encuentra un motivo para luchar, y se dedica en cuerpo y alma a ello." - CLAMP 




Hear Our Prayer - Kajiura Yuki - Tsubasa Chronicle Original Soundtrack: Future Soundscape I

I will destroy that place, that time so I can change my life...

http://vimeo.com/18407520

Doro darake yo najime nai tokai de
Onaji you ni warae nai utsumuite aruita no
Isogi ashi de surechigau hito-tachi
“Yume wa kanai mashita ka?”
Atashi mada mogaite iru
[In the city I'm not used to that's full of dirt,
I can't laugh the same and I walked with my head down
People pass by in a quick pace
They ask "has my dream come true?" But I'm still struggling]

Kodomo no goro ni modoru yori mo
Ima wo umaku ikite mitai yo
Kowagari wa umare tsuki

[I want to try living in the present
rather than returning to my childhood
When a coward was born]


Hi no atari basho ni dete
Ryoute wo hirogete mita nara
Ano sora koete yukeru ka na?
Nante omottanda
Tobitatsu tame no tsubasa
Sore wa mada mie nai
KANTAN ni ika nai kara ikite yukeru
[If I go to a sunny spot and stretch my arms out,
I wonder if I can go beyond the sky
that's what I thought
I still have no wings to fly with
It's because it's not simple that I can go on living]

Nureta koinu hiroi ageta dakede
Chotto warae chau hodo
Namida ga koborete kita
Aisaretai aisaretai bakari
Atashi itte ita yo ne
Motomeru dake ja dame ne
[I just picked up a wet puppy
and for a while, I laughed so much that tears spilled
"I want to be loved, I just want to be loved"
Is what I said. It's no good just to ask for it]

Kodomo no goro wa MAMA no koto
Hidoku kizutsuketa
Hi mo atta yo ne kawari tai
Ima zenbu
[When I was a child, there were days when I hurt my mother badly
I want to change everything]

Hi no ataru basho ni dete
Kono te wo tsuyoku nigitte mitai
Ano basho ano toki wo kowashite
I can change my life
Demo kokoro no naka subete wo
Totemo tsutae kire nai
KANTAN ni ika nai kara
Ikite yukeru
[I went to a sunny spot and tried holding your hand tightly
I will destroy that place, that time so I can change my life
But I really can't express everything that's in my heart
It's because it's not simple that I can go on living]

Hi no ataru basho ni dete
Chizu wo hirogete miru kedo
I know... You know...
Mayoi michi mo shikata nai
I can change my life
[I went to a sunny spot and spread out my map, but
I know... You know... that even the path of doubts can't be helped
I can change my life]

Sugite kita hibi zenbu de
Ima no atashi nanda yo
KANTAN ni ika nai kara
Ikite yukeru

[All the days that have passed make up the me that's here now
It's because it's not simple that I can go on] 


Life - YUI

*Lyrics&Translate from http://www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/5051/yui/life.html

P.S: I love this song I can stop listening to iiiiiiiiit!!. xD

DEVIATION

Choose your last words, this is the last time...

My, who me, my
Feet don't fail me now
Take me to the finish line
Oh my heart it breaks every step that I take
But I'm hoping at the gates,
They'll tell me that you're mine

Walking through the city streets
Is it by mistake or design
I feel so alone on the friday night
Can you make me feel like home,
If I tell you you're mine
Is like I told you honey

Don't make me sad, don't make me cry
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough
I don't know why
Keep making me laugh,
Lets go get high
The road is long, we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime
Come and take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane, so
Choose your last words
This is the last time
Cause you and I
We were born to die

Lost but now I am found
I can see but once I was blind
I was so confused as a little child
Trying to take what I could get
Scared that I couldn't find
All the answers honey

Don't make me sad, don't make me cry
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough
I don't know why
Keep making me laugh,
Lets go get high
The road is long, we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime
Come and take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane
Choose your last words,
This is the last time
Cause you and I
We were born to die...

We were born to die...
We were born to die...
Come and take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane

Don't make me sad, don't make me cry

Sometimes love is not enough when the road gets tough
I don't know why
Keep making me laugh,
Lets go get high
The road is long, we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime
Come and take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane
Choose your last words,
This is the last time
Cause you and I
We were born to die...

Born to Die - Lana del Rey

~Atmosphere~

Atmosphere - Kenio Fuke

I could try and point the finger...but the glass points in my direction...

You could stay a while longer
We could stay up and talk about last summer
We could go down to the water
Watch the sunset going under
It's not that I'm a stranger to lonely moments
I've had my share of those
Please don't go
Please don't leave me alone
A mirror is so much harder to hold

I could try and point the finger
But the glass points in my direction
Sure you've got your sharp edges
But my wounds are for my own reflection
You've got nothing I could ever hold against you
I've got fatal flaws to call my own
Please don't go
Please don't leave me alone
A mirror is so much harder to hold

I met a man who's looking for perfection
Said he'd never met a girl who's good enough
His eyes are getting old like they'd love to love again
Such a lonely man...
Such a lonely man

I see him in my reflection
Taking steps towards me these days
So I hold you that much closer
And pray we don't throw this away
It's not that I'm a man who couldn't love you
I know what these arms are for
Please don't go
Please don't leave me alone
A mirror is so much harder to hold
A mirror is so much harder to hold
Please don't go
Please don't leave me cold
A mirror is so much harder to hold

A Mirror is Harder to Hold - Jon Foreman

...Is it you for your indifference or me for just standing there?

You close the door in front of me, I wait patiently outside
But as the minutes tick away I feel the anger rise
Who's the object of my rage, who's not being fair?
Is it you for your indifference or me for just standing there?

Cause in my mind the room beyond is bathed in golden light
I dream about you through the day and I toss and turn at night
Sometimes it's hard to understand when they say that pride's a sin
Should I go or should I stay on the outside looking in?

Well I didn't make the grade today and I'm not the only one
But my heart, it won't stop hurting and feeling all alone
Maybe we'll trade places in some not too distant year
I'll hear your voice calling out, and I'll cover up my ears

Cause in my mind the room beyond is bathed in golden light
I dream about you through the day and I toss and turn at night
Sometimes it's hard to understand when they say that pride's a sin
Should I go or should I stay on the outside looking in?

Well I could brag on things I've done or the places I have been
But I never found a cure for on the outside looking in
Sometimes it's hard to understand when they say that pride's a sin
Should I go or should I stay on the outside looking in?

On the Outside Looking In - Alison Krauss & Union Station

I know where we can hide...just while away...

Baby don’t worry
It’s gonna work out fine
We’re not in a hurry,
We’ve got nothing but time to just

While away, while away,
While away one more day

I’ve got my problems
And you’ve got your fears
Maybe we’ll solve them
In a couple of years
But for now I’m gonna

While away, while away,
While away one more day

There’s something about a summer’s day
That just takes my blues away
Baby take a walk with me
Once around the willow tree
And listen to what I say

I’ve got your back dear
If you’ll stay by my side
Wipe away that tear, I know where we can hide
And just

While away, while away,
While away one more day...

While Away - Matthew Barber

The world keeps spinning on...going going gone...Every moment that we borrow

She told him she'd rather fix her makeup
Than try to fix what's going on
But the problem keeps on calling
Even with the cellphone gone
She told him that she believes in living
Bigger than she's living now
But her world keeps spinning backwards
And upsidedown

Don't say so long, and throw yourself wrong
Don't spend today away
Cause today will soon be

Gone, like yesterday is gone,
Like history is gone,
Just trying to prove me wrong
And pretend like you're immortal

She said he said live like no tomorrow
Every day we borrow
Brings us one step closer to the edge, infinity
Where's your treasure, where's your hope
If you get the world and lose your soul
She pretends like, she pretends like she's immortal

Don't say so long
You're not that far gone
This could be your big chance to makeup
Today will soon be

Gone, like yeterday is gone,
Like history is gone,
The world keeps spinning on,
Your going going gone,
Like summer break is gone,
Like saturday is gone
Just try to prove me wrong
You pretend like your immortal, your immortal

We are not infinite
We are not permanent
Nothing is immediate
We're so confident
In our accomplishments
Look at our decadence

Gone, like Frank Sinatra
Like Elvis and his mom
Like AL Pacino's cash nothing lasts in this life
My highschool dreams are gone
My childhood sweets are gone
Life is a day that doesn't last for long

Life is more than money
Time was never money
Time was never cash,
Life is still more than girls
Life is more than hundred dollar bills
And roto-tom fills
Life's more than fame and rock and roll and thrills
All the riches of the kings
End up in wills we got information in the information age
But do we know what life is
Outside of our convenient Lexus cages

She said he said live like no tomorrow
Every moment that we borrow
Brings us closer to the God who's not short of cash
Hey Bono I'm glad you asked
Life is still worth living, life is still worth living

Gone - Switchfoot

Life was just happening...

Here's to the memories
These are my souvenirs
My mental pictures of everything

Here's to the late nights
Here's to the firelight
These are my souvenirs
My souvenirs

I close my eyes and go back in time
I can see you smiling, so alive
We were so young

We had no fear
We were so young
We had no idea that life was just happening
Life was just happening...

Here's to your bright eyes
Shining like fireflies
These are my souvenirs
The memory of a lifetime

We were wide-eyed with everything
Everything around us
We were enlightened by everything
Everything...

So I close my eyes and go back in time
I can see you smiling, so alive
I close my eyes and go back in time
You were just a child then and so was I
We were so young
We had no fear
We were so young
We had no idea

That nothing lasts forever
Nothing lasts forever
Nothing lasts, nothing last
You and me together
Were always now or never

Can you hear me?
Can you hear me?

I close my eyes and go back in time
I can see you smiling, you're so alive

I close my eyes and go back in time
You were wide-eyed
You were wide-eyed
We were so young
We had no fear
We were so young
We had just begun
A song we knew but had never sung
It burned like fire inside our lungs
And life was just happening
Life was just happening

I wouldn't change it for anything
My souvenirs

Souvenirs - Switchfoot

Something you said is hanging in the air...Whispering your name out loud...

Everything in a moment starting where
Something you said is hanging in the air
Now I know my life is sweetening
Changing everything

Something that you said
Turned me from the inside out
Running through my head
Something I have dreamed about
And I feel so real
And it feels so right...

Showing you every weakness
And feeling strong for it
I used to run from real love
Now I long for it
Now I know what I've been missing
Since I've been listening

Something that you said
Turned me from the inside out
Lying in my bed
Whispering your name out loud
And I feel so real
And it feels so right
Something that you said
Got through to me tonight

Never so far you can't call me back
I'm never more than a single kiss away

...And I feel so real
And it feels so right...

Something that you said
Turned me from the inside out
Running through my head
Something I had dreamed about
And I feel, And I feel
And it feels so right
Something that you said
Turned me from the inside out
Lying in my bed
Whispering your name out loud
And I feel,And I feel....

Something that you said - The Bangles

Sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright...but it's never enough

Hello, hello
Anybody out there?
Cause I don't hear a sound
Alone, alone
I don't really know where the world is
But I miss it now

I'm out on the edge and I'm screaming my name
Like a fool at the top of my lungs
Sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright
But it's never enough
Cause my echo, echo
Is the only voice coming back
My shadow, shadow
Is the only friend that I have

Listen, listen
I would take a whisper if
That's all you have to give
But it isn't, isn't
You could come and save me
Try to chase it crazy right out of my head

I'm out on the edge and I'm screaming my name
Like a fool at the top of my lungs
Sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright
But it's never enough
Cause my echo, echo
Is the only voice coming back
My shadow, shadow
Is the only friend that I have

I don't wanna be down and
I just wanna feel alive and
Get to see your face again.
I don't wanna be down and
I just wanna feel alive and
Get to see your face again.
Once again just my echo, my shadow...
You're my only friend.

And I'm out on the edge and I'm screaming my name
Like a fool at the top of my lungs.
Sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright
But it's never enough
Cause my echo, echo
Oh my shadow, shadow

Hello, hello
anybody out there?...

Echo - Jason Walker

On this Christmas Eve, I wish I were with you...

Greeting cards have all been sent
The Christmas rush is through
But I still have one wish to make
A special one for you

Merry Christmas darling
We're apart that's true
But I can dream and in my dreams
I'm Christmas-ing with you

Holidays are joyful
There's always something new
But every day's a holiday
When I'm near to you
The lights on my tree
I wish you could see
I wish it every day

Logs on the fire
Fill me with desire
To see you and to say
That I wish you Merry Christmas
Happy New Year, too
I've just one wish
On this Christmas Eve
I wish I were with you

Logs on the fire
Fill me with desire
To see you and to say
That I wish you Merry Christmas
Happy New Year, too
I've just one wish
On this Christmas Eve
I wish I were with you
I wish I were with you

Merry Christmas Darling - The Carpenters

"I wouldn't lie... not to you...not about this"

"I...
I'm not really good at telling you this things...
I overthink too much...I doubt too much... or maybe it's something else...
I'm not that kind that says something even if they don't really feel it...
I'm that kind... the complicated one...that feels it first
but never says the words... instead I would try to show it to you...
In the best way that I can...

I'm not really good at starting conversations...
I don't have anything important to say...
And I dread what your reaction might be after I say something
because... I don't really know you that much...
I believe I don't know you at all, actually.
Anyhow... I guess what I'm traying to say is that...
I've grown very fond of you lately... I don't know why exactly
I care about you... And I might not be any good at all of those thing I said before
but I wouldn't lie... not to you...not about this...
I wish to spend as much time with you as I can...and as much as you allow me "

"The love thing" - there__Shegoes


Music:  The Scent Of Love - Michael Nyman - "The Piano" Soundtrack

"Yo...
No soy muy buena diciéndote estas cosas...
Pienso demasiado...Dudo demasiado...O tal vez sea otra cosa...
No soy de esa clase que dicen algo incluso si no lo sienten...
Soy de esa clase...La complicada...Que siente primero
pero jamás dice las palabras...En su lugar trataría de demostrártelo
de la mejor manera que pueda...

No soy muy buena empezando una conversación...
No tengo nada importante que decir...
Y tengo terror a cual podría ser tu reacción después de decir algo
porque...No te conozco demasiado...
Creo que no te conozco en absoluto en realidad.
De cualquier modo...Supongo que lo que trato de decirte es que...
Me he encariñado contigo últimamente...No sé exactamente porque
Me preocupo por ti... Y podré no ser tan buena en todas esas cosas que dije antes
Pero jamás mentiría...No a ti...No sobre esto.
Quiero pasar tanto tiempo contigo como pueda...y tanto como me permitas"

"Cosas de Amor" - there__Shegoes

I'm ready to put it all behind, time for us to move on...

Oh no, where did all the years go?
And was it really worth all of this
Heartache that was handed to me
Holding on just don't make sense
But the hardest part of letting go
Is tryin' to find a way
To let you know

So we'll just cry
Cry on each other's shoulders
Cry until it's over
Can't it just be over
And we'll just cry, cry
Cry until it's all gone
Been holding on for too long
Time for us to move on
I'm tired of tryin' to find a reason why
So let's just cry

I've been thinking 'bout my life and
How much time I've wasted
I'm ready to put it all behind
Let it all be yesterday
But the hardest part of letting go
Is tryin' to find a way
To let you know

So let's just cry,
Cry on each other's shoulders
Cry until it's over
Can't it just be over
And we'll just cry, cry
Cry until it's all gone
Been holding on for too long
Time for us to move on
I'm tired of tryin' to find a reason why
So let's just cry
Let's just cry

So let's just cry,
Cry on each other's shoulders
Cry until it's over
Can't it just be over
And we'll just cry, cry
Cry until it's all gone
Been holding on for too long
Time for us to move on
And we'll just cry,
Cry on each other's shoulders
Cry until it's over
Can't it just be over
And we'll just cry, cry
Cry until it's all gone
Been holding on for too long
Time for us to move on
I'm tired of tryin' to find a reason why
I'm tired of tryin' to find a reason why...

I'm tired of tryin' to find a reason why...
So let's just cry...

Cry - Jason Walker

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mGOfBPIKHvQ&feature=related